JUST AN UPDATE :)

Alright, where to start.....ok I got it.

Well, I'm enjoying driving a LOT! The feel of freedom is.......exhilarating, yeah, that's the word. I normally take Lauren with me so she gets "assisted freedom" hahahaha. There is a small downside that is called *ERRANDS*. I don't mind them normally (because it's gives me a chance to drive around, DUH!) but here are a couple of reasons that somtimes make me hate them. 1) They have terrible timing. They need to be done right at the worst possible time, which for me includes when I am just about to do something I want to do. 2) They're boring. Of course I don't think there is an exciting errand (i mean just the word "errand" sounds uninteresting). I guess I could make getting gas or picking something up at Walmart interesting but I'm a little insecure about embarassing myself in public (private's a different story lol). Beside that though, having my lisense is nothing but great! (and just so you know I do errands with a smile on my face because I enjoy serving my mom and dad)

Ok, next......

TEXTING!!!!!!!! My wonderful, best, cool, awesome, amazing mom gave me (and the rest of my family) A HUGE GIFT!!!!! Its called UNLIMITED TEXTING!!!!!!!!!!! I already love it! A bunch of my friends have unlimited and now we can talk allllllll the time. It just seems that texting is so much easier than talking on the phone. It must be a teenage thing because calling somebody would seem "easier" but my brain says it's not so I text.

Ok, NEXT!!!......

Photography, my secret passion. I can't explain why I love it so much, but i'll try. It's just so relaxing and wonderful to me to capture my Saviors beautiful creations. From my family and friends to the magnificent forest trees just outside my window. Pictures are so dear to my heart for several reasons. One being is each one no matter how silly or emabarrassing, holds a memory in time. Something special to someone was happening the moment the button on the camara was pressed. I look at the pictures from when I was little or the pictures of noah or even the silly pictures I take of myself, trying to remember the memory that connects it to me. Another is how pictures link us to the past, our past. I can't think of a better thing to do than rummage through a scrapbook or a shoebox of old pictures and learn of my ancestors. I can think of all the times I've gone to grandma's house and sat with her as she tells stories of her parents and grandparents just by seeing a scene of them that is set in a picture. How great such a simple act can have on someones life. I think of the honor I was given to take my brothers final picture on this earth, and I know that has some bearing as to why I love photography so much.

So, that's my update. :)

Beach photography (no family yet) (still coming!)

WOW!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HAVE MY LICENSE AND I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Some Balance PLEASE!!!

Ok, I wouldn't normally do this because I personally don't like reading vent post but I seriously need it. Between my family being in and out of the hospital like we live there and driving I am having one of my first teenage all about ME ME ME moments so just bear with me or stop reading this and go to someone else's blog.
First, I love my family but I wish things were so much different!!!! I have never thought that in my life but like I said...ME ME ME remember...I just want everything to be CALM!!! No more hospital, no more going back and forth to Chapel Hill and WakeMed, no more "having to be the perfect child", I HATE IT! Life just sucks right now!!!!! Yes things are getting better and I understand that but still UGH!!!!!!!! The fact that it has to be that way at all just STINKS!
Second, DRIVING! It's amazing how my confidence and come and go so quickly. I go from none to over like THAT. I want the between!!!! I want to have enough confidence to feel good but know I still have so much to learn. It is looking like an IMPOSSIBLE task to find some BALANCE!! Plus I am so scared about my drivers lisense test. I feel ready until I think about the driving skills test. What if I CHOKE!?!?! What if I have to take the test 20 TIMES!?!?!? I mean I'm doing ok, I'm makin' it, passing all the test and I get in the car and forget one little thing and then POOF!!! FAILURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So scary!


ahhhhhhhh........deep breath.........................


Ok, now that I am in control again I know that all these trials are for my good that in the end that I will be blessed for enduring through but I don't feel very strong right now. I'm sorry I put this up here but I....well I really don't know what to say....just i'm sorry.

From, Emily

Camp Cape = COOL

This is my Camp cape that goes with my super hero costume! How cool right! The whole theme is "I Believe in Superheros", and Jesus Christ is our greatest "superhero". I can't wait for camp now....3 1/2 weeks and counting! YAY!!!!

Photoshopped Self Portraits

My Super Yummy, Super Colorful Cake :)