Ok, I wouldn't normally do this because I personally don't like reading vent post but I seriously need it. Between my family being in and out of the hospital like we live there and driving I am having one of my first teenage all about ME ME ME moments so just bear with me or stop reading this and go to someone else's blog.
First, I love my family but I wish things were so much different!!!! I have never thought that in my life but like I said...ME ME ME remember...I just want everything to be CALM!!! No more hospital, no more going back and forth to Chapel Hill and WakeMed, no more "having to be the perfect child", I HATE IT! Life just sucks right now!!!!! Yes things are getting better and I understand that but still UGH!!!!!!!! The fact that it has to be that way at all just STINKS!
Second, DRIVING! It's amazing how my confidence and come and go so quickly. I go from none to over like THAT. I want the between!!!! I want to have enough confidence to feel good but know I still have so much to learn. It is looking like an IMPOSSIBLE task to find some BALANCE!! Plus I am so scared about my drivers lisense test. I feel ready until I think about the driving skills test. What if I CHOKE!?!?! What if I have to take the test 20 TIMES!?!?!? I mean I'm doing ok, I'm makin' it, passing all the test and I get in the car and forget one little thing and then POOF!!! FAILURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So scary!
ahhhhhhhh........deep breath.........................
Ok, now that I am in control again I know that all these trials are for my good that in the end that I will be blessed for enduring through but I don't feel very strong right now. I'm sorry I put this up here but I....well I really don't know what to say....just i'm sorry.
From, Emily
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First Emily...I realize that life just sucks sometimes...it does and it is those times that we just have to persevere...not something that you want to hear but true nonetheless..it is HOW you peresevere that counts and so you need to do it well (and you do)..second, yes, taking the driving test is scary but you just need to do your best...you will be nervous but you have prepared yourself well and so pray and ask the Lord to bless you as you go and take your test. You just need to take a breath and we will get it all together and go on vacation and have a good time! Life is hard and I know that and it's ok for you to have a bad day...you are 16 afterall..hehehe! I love you!!!
I took my driving test twice (it was scary as heck - not sure why as there is no limit to how many times you can take it?) One thing good...no boy or friend problems in that post...that part of being a teenager sucks too.
Well of first of all I would like to say...girl you go right ahead and vent! You deserve it more than any of us! (AND I just made a huge vent post on my blog so we can both be venters today!)
I think you deserve to have it all about you for a few minutes at least. You have gone through way more than most girls your age and your ability to be positive and happy is incredible. Just remember its ok to get annoyed...you DON'T have to be perfect.
And about the driving test...I only had to take mine once, I wasn't scared of it...but just ask my sister Patti who is still scared of the test and she's 19! And Andrew who is perfect at everything who had to take the test TWICE! So just do your best and if you fail you just take it again. And I think something that helped me was thinking about all of the horrible drivers on the road and that I know personally who passed their tests...if idiots and crazy people can pass you will too!
We all need to vent now and then. Don't feel bad about it. Just know we love you and understand your difficulties. You are great and I am looking so forward to gettng to spend time with you and your family. You will do fine on the driving test. It's ok if you do have to take it over again. I didn't have any trouble with the driving one but ask me about the written sometime!
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